Feeling...

sick, shitt. loosing my voicee.

well, its been awhile since i went on my blogger.

but, i have some unspoken feelings that i jsst need to let out.

i've been feeling pretty shitty, for the past few days. i dont know why. i think its because of the fact, that it doesnt even feel like we're together. i mean yeah, i see you in school & we kiss and shiit when we see each other but, you DONT even call me anymore, you say things like your mom hides the phone from you & you tired when you get home cus you go home late, but still. i mean i knw we jsst went spend time last saturday, but i feel so DISTANT from you.

"im mostly with my girls, and your mostly with your boys"

Ugh,;( i knww it may seem that im ohkay but, in the inside i feel sad, behind that smile theres so much tears that are ready to burst out but i dont show it, because i dont want it to affect my girls. i dont want them to knw that i feel like this. cus if im sad, then their gonna be sad. & plus i jsst wanna have fun while i have my time with my girls, i dont wanna be all sad & shii. & plus i need to take advantage in the school times, because thats like the only times when we're all together. after, school we separate. Me & kim go gloria's house, drazen, cj, amie, and hannah go kams. Shy and steph either go with each other to zippys, home or with their boyfriends, and val jsst does her own thing go soccer practice, home, or kams with amie them if can.

as you can see, theres alot in my mind right nows, but i'll jsst replace it with a smile & a laugh.

" You gotta be able to smile with all the bullshit"

- Tupac.